# Heart-Felt Word: Grad-day brings much excitement.

The much awaited end of "O" levels is here. Just 2 days away, and it'll be sweet sweet freedom. But the thought of my results scares me. I don't have confidence that i'll do well. Sigh~ I seriously don't wanna fail my "O"s. Oh well, saying all these now is useless.

For the 6days break before the final paper, did quite alot of shopping and veryVERYvery little studying. :) Bought stuff for grad-day. I'm very excited :))) Went to orchard with Yunjia, Wanjia and Vian on tuesday after the paper. Then on wednesday, went out with Pck, justin and Vian to marina and also orchard. Bought my shoes and dress within those 2 days. :D Shopping was fun for the both days, I just pity my feet.

Went to causeway on thurs and friday, Bought make up and stuff. Also had a b'day lunch for my bro on the 8th. Got my contact lenses too! whee~ Gonna collect them next tuesday after POA paper 1. :D

I've decided not to stay on the first day of the chalet, just go for the bbq. Easier, so i don't have to bring so many things over. Then I'll stayed from the 2nd day onwards, after grad-day :)

Shopping makes a very good distraction, keeps your mind off of things. Maybe its a temporary relief for the emptiness inside? I don't know. Oh well, my intuitions were right and it hurts. Deep down, i don't wanna acknowledge the pain, and i just wanna brush it off my shoulders, and treat it like it means nothing to me at all, i refuse to be a fool again, i refused!. But the truth is harsh. No matter how much i try to hide, it still comes back to haunt me.

I have to consistently remind myself that i am a strong girl, to remind myself that this trivial matter shouldn't affect me. Cause i was prepared wasn't i ?! WASN'T I?!
Maybe i'm not as strong as i think i am, not as strong as how others see me.

Oh well, i just gotta pick myself up now, cause there are people who need me to be there for them. :)

I wonder why they had to made me feel all hopefully and then break me into pieces. I wish that i could let go as easily as they can and feel nothing. why can't i?!

Anyways,
I feel oozy all day long. lols.
and my schedule is packed through out next week.

Gonna end here.
Goodbye~

CLAUDIA Y
~~I miss you,~~
But i guess you don't feel the same.

ps: Jay chou's sad songs are the best

some random pictures