loneliness.

I Dolled up, 

in the end, I headed to town alone.

I lied to my mum, so she wouldn't worry.

the christmas lightings are up. It is really really beautiful. 

Better than last year's. 

It was really crowded. 

Seeing friends, families and couples, All in a jolly mood,

laughing and smiling, made me feel very lonely. 

Its felt like I was invisible. Like I was the only emo-er haha xD

Wanted to buy shoes, saw none I like. 

Why is it so difficult to find a pair of suitable shoes?

I got to eat ice cream though. 

I din't do any work today. hooray for me. =.=

Random pict. Lightings look nicer than this X 10

All for nothing

Left

Right. 

 CLAUDIA

I am nothing.

Nothing.

Mummy was right, it's about how much I mean to you. 

and obviously its not I don't mean a lot to you.

Sadness was felt, not because you couldn't make it,

it was because I've anticipate it already.

I knew you wouldn't come. I knew it.

Its funny how the heart tries to numb the heartaches,

by consistently telling itself negative stuff,

so that when it actually happens. 

It wouldn't hurt as much anymore.

well, it still hurts, but do you care? No. 

I tried to make myself look prettier, with all those make up.

Just to feel wanted. 

I fail miserably.

I still felt ugly.