# Heart-Felt Word: Love me for me.

Had a short day at school :) Nothing much, lesson was pretty relaxing.

After school, headed to Lot1 with Jos, Jiamin, Ivory and Matt.

PIZZA HUT FOR LUNCH. :D

Then we walked around, Jos bought bag. hahhaa. I feel like buying a new bag too * pout*

We watched "The Coffin", the movie was alright lah, wished it was scarier. x)

I just finished watching "Wanted". It was awesome. :D Really A-W-E-S-O-M-E :D :D :D

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I think the big guy up there is trying to teach me something.

I used to believe that when you try you best at something,

efforts put it would be paid off, and you'll gain something in return.

Its like geog. Input = output.

but in life, input doesn't equal to output most of the time.

Sometimes the amount of effort you put in, doesn't lead to the desirable

output. Disappointing eh?

Sometimes, you see people having it so much easier, and see yourself struggling,

even if you put in a greater effort.

Frustrating eh?

Jealous ? envious? Ya, all part of a huge pot of emotion, stirred and mixed altogether at once.

but who is it to blame? the answer is yourself.

Cause, you are dumb. I need to Wise up lah~

In life, hard work don't usually pay off. Being smart, working smart pays off a lot.

Is deception a "skill" for survival? If so, does it make it okay to deceive others?

If nature allows it, with the spider deceiving insect, the bird deceiving birds.

Does it make it okay for us to deceive.

I don't think so. Not for us humans.

Sometimes you wonder, how many people around you is actually sincere.

Someone you regard as friend, might treat you as a pawn. A tool to get to his/her

goal.

I am only human. With feelings, with thoughts, with senses.

Some times I think I should stop beating myself up for not being as good as I wanna be.

Cause, I am only human. but i think its just a convenient lie. To lie to myself.

Lie to myself to cover up my own incapability. Lies, I think we lie to ourselves a lot.

sometimes, I feel used. Other times I feel good being used.

As the void resurface time and time again, i'm starting to get tired of it.

Sometimes I wonder if you still love me, even though I think I know the answer.

sometimes I try not to think about it.

Give more, demand less.

I am afraid.

I think everyone is secretly evil.

I think I am too optimistic for my own good.

When all these negative thoughts is clouding your mind. I realized having faith helps.

Having faith that eventually, you'll get what you desire. Having faith in yourself and the people around you.

Life = contradiction.

I wanted to hide my words, but I thought to myself. (" heck it, its my blog, if I can't type what I feel and have less consideration of what other humans think, then what the hell is this blog for " ) THUS, you have read this. These are just random thoughts that are running through my mind. Just need to put them somewhere before my brain floods.

okay, i never do any work today. haha. =.=

CLAUDIA

for I am me.