300th post.

Even though, I haven been showing it, I'm rather disheartened. Ya, life is not always consisted with funs and games, I know, but this is the first time I've felt this discourage. I reckon I've always been pretty optimistic but not now, not now. My little world is so messy now, with strings of unpleasant event, family members keep quarreling, financial problems are there, my failing relationship, my lousy schoolwork. It seems like I cannot do anything right. its so frustrating, so saddening, so discouraging.

I find myself in a state where I don't even feel like trying anymore. Sometimes it really gets harder to breathe, like literally, can feel the heaviness of the chest. I am tired of feeling this way.

Ultimately I've failed, as a girlfriend, as student, as a daughter.

but I can't give up can I?

I have to make my situation better. Somehow.

What I need now, is to feel the wind against my skin, a little sunshine to dawn on me & to feel your warmth again.

CLAUDIA

words are probably

the best weapon around,

it cuts you like a knife

with no physical injuries,

but it leaves you bleeding

on the inside

for the longest time.

It attacks your vitals,

your mind and your heart,

slowly tearing you apart.