This is the worse I've felt since forever. I feel my heart cringing, literally. I feel empty, I feel very alone. I feel too much.

I really don't know how to stop this. Sleeping it off? I've been doing that since ytd, sleep at 10.30pm only to wake up at 3am, feeling like shit again.

Tried to think positive, pounding positive thoughts into my head. Trying my hardest not to fall apart. Trying to pull myself together, but I am losing.

I need someone to tell me it's okay, I need a hug. I NEED someone, and needing someone scares me. Being reliant on someone scares me, because I know they are gonna leave eventually.

Now I'm left with myself. All wore out, in a pathetic state.

Claudia why you like that? Why?
I am tired, and sad.